So here I am, on my spiritual journey, learning the language of the universe through all that is magnificent around me… It’s been about 2 years since things started clicking and something activated and it hasn’t let me rest. A new fire burns inside, and it slowly is catching the rest of me. It was weak – in and out- at first, then slow and steady, then brighter and brighter and sometimes it would quiet back down to give me a break. Some of you may know what I mean by this- awakening of the soul; connection to the universe, realizing my full potential. It’s a gentle revealing of the beauty around me.
Through this journey I’ve read a lot of books on different subjects, there are many I still want to read. I’ve looked into energy work, got my reiki certification, I’ve looked into religions, belief systems and scientific understandings. It was all very relevant, and interesting but didn’t quite have that click with it. Somewhere along that journey I remembered about tarot cards, so I got myself a deck of RWS. I checked it out, opened it a few times, did a few spreads- was blown away by it, but eventually left it be for a while. Then I picked it up again.. this time I will never put it down. These cards are alive. They talk, they have character, they have humor, they have a spark. I am in love, quite literally. I have 6 different books I’m reading at the same time on tarot, I watch youtube videos, I do readings, I am constantly studying and working with them. They have shown me so much, the glimpses I get into other people’s lives are …. mindblowing… just how could they communicate this exact situation of a person I have never met? I stop questioning and I just keep working with them, learning to speak their language.
There is a beautiful book written on the language of the universe, by Paulo Coelho “The Alchemist”. This book produced a week long synchronicity event for me. All of a sudden I saw everything- I saw the pattern that I was living in, I saw the world around me and all its pieces as one and I began to understand it. I began to attempt to speak the language of the universe. My week was full of “coincidences” and beautiful omens. After that, somehow it diminished and I lost the ability to understand it. But I never forgot the feeling it created. I never forgot what it felt like just to be in the know and speak the language of the universe.
These past 4 days have been filled with strange coincidences, and understandings and I’m in awe. Last night I finally had a full on understanding that the universe is trying to give me a message, and I would just be completely dumb to continue ignoring it.
So to start at the beginning, we have been wanting to buy a house for a few years now, but it just hasn’t worked out, something always got in the way (credit score, no time, downpayment etc). We live in the Pacific NW, on the ocean, below sea level.. hello “The big one” – we’ll be dead if it happens, there is no where to run to. Nothing to be done pretty much. So I have been working hard at getting all the ducks lined up, and got my husband’s credit score to a good point, talked to the mortgage broker, found a possible home, investigated a few options for may be a manufactured home, a build-it loan, buy a piece of land. Here we were in a pretty good place, almost read to move forward, and I learn that Oregon Dept of Revenue got our tax payment about 2 days after the new interest charge accrued, but because it was only $80, they didn’t mail me anything saying that we owed it. I saw the check was cashed, I never got any mail- I moved on, like I do every other year. Apparently it crossed in the mail, and they filed a lien against my husband’s name and mine for the “unpaid taxes”, so I see a notification on Experian that our credit scores are about 95pts less than what they were. I immediately call and pay, but this is now on our records and there isn’t much to be done about it. So… we can’t buy a house. Okay. Fine. We’ll stay where we are. Wasn’t meant to be yet. Bummed, but not shattered.
Meanwhile, I’m doing my tarot readings- my readings are spot on for complete strangers, people are grateful for the guidance provided, it is beautiful and I really love it. Cards speak to me, they have messages, they make sense. Last Thursday we had a storm blow in our way, remnants from a hurricane, so we were suppose to have high winds, potential damage etc. During the storm we lost power- that’s about all for us. A small town down south had a tornado tear through it, and did some damage. The whole 4 day weekend, we got to spend as a family at home, playing crafting- something we never get to do, since we work so much. It was very nice. But we were couped up in the house, so we finally decide to venture out when the weather calmed down at the end of the storm. So we drive up to the beach, the access is still closed. The police officer, after some hesitation, lets us out on the beach. The first thing I see is this log jammed in the sand- all by its lonesome. Behind it beautiful yellow and blue sky, with a setting sun and white foamy ocean. It was breathtaking. Immediately I was struck by the resemblance of the log to one of my tarot cards – the Ace of Wands. I am attaching both pictures. So I go home, think about it, think about the card, think about its meaning. Aces are all about beginnings, Wands are a fire sign- so essentially a burning idea. Here is a definition from google that sums it pretty well: This highly action-oriented card sees you feeling incredibly inspired and enthusiastic about pursuing a new idea or project that you have in mind. You are all revved up and raring to go.
So then I’m wondering, what is it telling me to go for? I wonder, but nothing concrete comes to mind. That night, I’m awaken at 4am by ROARING thunder outside on an almost full moon night. (So this was a storm before the October full moon- pretty notable to me on its own). I have heard lots of thunder in my life, never been scared by it. But being awaken to something that literally sounds like the world just broke apart, my first thought was “it’s happening, earthquake and tsunami in the middle of the night”. I felt myself become terrified to the very core, fear literally taking over me in every way possible. Deep fear. It took me a few moments to realize it was not an earthquake, but thunder. However, those few moments lasted a lifetime. I saw my life flash before my eyes, my heart filled with crushing pain for my 3 year old son, for my sweet family, for all the days that we weren’t going to live to love each other anymore. That is pain that I never want to feel again.. I DO NOT want to be here, in this home where I KNOW I WILL die if the fault line goes. I felt this was a preview for me, for what it will feel like when it happens. I laid there, wondering if I should even get up, forever grateful my husband jumped out of bed to go get our son- (at least he will be close to us when we all die)- or if I should get up and try to scramble to get something on myself so I don’t freeze to death and try to make a run for it with my family.
This experience was core shattering. I also have to say that in the beginning of the month I had a VERY vivid dream that I was at the beach, and all of a sudden earthquake started happening and water was moving in strange patterns, and birds became confused. I found myself grabbing my phone and sending “I love you forever” to my husband and to my mom and my best friend. Then I woke up. But those feelings were pretty intense. So in a way, that was like a 2nd experience of that feeling “I’m going to die”. A thought appeared in my head “Next time it will be for real. 3rd time is the charm”.
This gets even more interesting… the morning after the thunder, after we got up, I see a text message on my phone from my mom that says please call me asap. So I do, she proceeds to tell me that my step dad and her found a house in a tsunami safe zone, in the back roads, so it has some land and it’s currently being remodeled, but they already called about it and it’s not actually on the market at the moment, but will be soon. And they know our situation with the credit score, so how about they purchase it, but we pay the mortgage and all associated expenses, until we are ready to purchase it from them, but in the mean time we’ll be at least a little safer. The listing agent said they need to contact the owner and let them know they are interested, as the house was purchased as a “flip” house. To note, I have wanted a house on that back road, with some land on it so I can grow food and have chickens, and so has my husband. So I listen, which normally I’d tell them to just nevermind and not to worry about it. My step dad later describes this random experience as “compelled and he felt he absolutely must share this with me” and that they weren’t looking at all and were on a different subject when they stumbled on it, but it drew their attention to a point that they couldn’t walk away from it.
We go drive by the house later that day, no one lives there as its still under remodel. My husband initially balked at it, because “its too close to the dairy farm, it will smell like shit”, but turns out he was wrong, its far enough that it doesn’t smell at all. It is a possibility- it is acceptable location, decent looking. I leave it at that for now. Through all of this I still wonder what the ace of wands on the beach was trying to tell me, and how this “near death” feeling affected me. In one of my tarot videos (Biddy Tarot) I stumble upon October 2016 forecast, and watch it for the first time. Low and behold the first of the 3 cards is an ace of wands. The second is the Star. The message is to trust in the universe, get out of your own way and just trust and let go of the doubts I may have. This resonates with me to the absolute core. It dawns on me, how much more clear do I need to be spoken to before I get the message???
- Dream experience of the earthquake.
- I left this one out above, but I listed to a Kryon channelled message (randomly came on YouTube!!) about how this month you will start noticing synchronicities, and you shouldn’t doubt yourself and just trust it and go along with this experience.
- A huge storm on a full moon weekend at the coast. (By the way, majority of the people envision the Big One happening on a miserably cold dark and rainy night).
- A very obvious log in the shape of Ace of Wands on the beach.
- Middle of the night “we are going to die” experience with thunder.
- Followed by a conversation about how my parents can buy us a home that isn’t on the market yet but is in the tsunami safe zone.
- The October 2016 tarot forecast video with Ace of Wands as the 1st card, and the message to just stop doubting and trust the universe.
- It is said that the feeling of synchronicity can never be relayed in words. But you just realize that there is so much more in all these odd coincidences than meets the words.
So I talk to my best friend about this, and suddenly come to a realization that the universe is trying to draw my attention to something, it is trying to send me a message. I didn’t see it as “whole” picture until I talked to her. Her approval of all these “oddities” was very much the last sign that I needed before it dawned on me, how much more obvious can the universe make it for me. I decided my role in all of this is just to do as I’m directed. So the listing agent said to go talk to the people at the house and let them know we could be a potential buyer- so that’s what I needed to do. This was my role in this experience. So it would just be so wrong for me to not do that because of my concerns of feeling awkward and shy approaching a person… “hey, do you want to sell your house?”.
So to continue this…. today I draw a card of the day from my tarot deck before I get going for the day. At this point, I’m only 90% convinced that I’m going to go talk to these people and overcome my fear, so there is still 10% of me thinking “well.. I have a lot to do today, maybe some other time…”. So my card of the day is 10 of cups. This picture… well, it depicts a family being happy on a farm house under a rainbow. So after being awe struck by the card, and knowing the key word for it was Joy, I decide to further see what wisdoms it has for me in the book. I pick up by newly purchased 875+ page book (FAT BOOK) and it falls out of my hands. It drops open..on nothing other than a page in the middle that talks about the card of 10 of cups. The meaning in the book only further confirms that I need to listen to my inner voice and go to the house. I notice in the notes it says that 3 cards of “10s” (so like 3 cards of different suits, but still 10s) would mean its a good time to buy or a good
time to sell. This takes my mind to yesterday when I had 2 “10s” fall out of the deck while I was shuffling for my daily draw. I was confused by the message yesterday… but today I beautifully see how it was orchestrated so I’d get the true message behind it.
So after that I feel compelled to drive to the house. Noone is there, so I write a note (thank God!!) and leave my info and what I want to talk to them about. I pull out of the driveway, look over my shoulder at the house.. and boom, appears a full beautiful rainbow over the house and the land. I’m awe struck. It is an image from my 10 of cups. Three seconds go by and the rainbow disappears. So now.. here I am. Waiting. Patiently, as the universe has its way, I completed my role, now I wait. I’m so awe struck by the language of the universe. Through all these experiences I describe, there are a a few very minor synchronicities that took place as well, to even create a deeper experience for this all for me. I trust you universe, and I am listening.