My tarot cards have recently taken over a great chunk of my free time, and I’m loving every minute of it.
I got enough courage again to read for strangers, and it’s been truly rewarding. I’m finding myself as I help others find themselves. What can be more soul nourishing? That’s about it for me. To be the voice of kindness, to be voice of guidance, to be the voice of encouragement, to be the voice of caution, to be the voice of enthusiasm for someone. It’s a gift to be able to give from your heart and from your soul. A message that comes from a stranger, in the words that you needed to hear, in the words that you needed most right now. Those words, because they come from a complete stranger, who somehow is able to see you so transparently and the energy happening around you, are a message of the universe. Your doubts are cleared, you find the courage to believe in yourself, you find a way to the path that you lost a while ago. I am at my greatest joy typing those messages to people, knowing that what I see will make a difference in their lives.
So for months now, I have been stalked by one particular court card, that has announced itself to me as “me” at my highest potential. The card would show up at readings nagging me about things I have been putting off, about my attitude or behavior, or any sort of action or inaction I have done, that didn’t put me at my highest potential. As a disclaimer, I have to say that I completely deserved every nagging reminder and every dirty look the card gave me, as it gathered it’s gang of supporting cards around itself. She has been so good to me, in the most annoying way.
I have changed things in the last few weeks, I live differently, I behave differently, I practice patience a lot more, I make time for things that matter and let go of things that don’t. It’s been a magical difference in the way I feel and the way I see life. It’s made my connection with Tarot much stronger and more important. Two nights ago (or about that) I had a dream where I literally FELT and understood that the nagging court card has left me as “me”. It was no longer my energy, I was no longer its essence. Instead, I was given a new card, a new Signifier. It was quite the upgrade in energy. That energy feels so beautiful, soft, silky and luxurious. Then it dawned on me, how differently I felt and it only made sense that my “old skin” was shed off, and I embraced a new one.
A change of signifier in readings was not something I really thought I’d get to experience, because I never thought that it existed. I didn’t even really use a signifier much in my readings, I just became aware that the particular Court Card was me through its behavior and I’ve used it as my signifier because of that. But then to experience that dramatic shift in energy and realize that the old signifier no longer feels right, and that the dream in fact was true, I did get an “upgrade”. That made my heart melt with joy.
A relationship with your cards is truly something special and indescribable. The cards laugh, joke, annoy and get annoyed, stress, deploy sarcasm, show compassion and call you out on your bull shit. They penetrate your dreams, they become another language you speak and understand, they become a different way of understanding the world around you. They allow you to see and feel energies, they allow you to peer deeper than you ever have before. They carry and share an immense amount of wisdom and welcome you to be its guest, provided you have set good intentions. Lying to the cards is absolutely pointless. They are always right. I, as a reader, can be wrong, but never them. The amount of attitude and personality in each deck is so unique. It’s been long believed that no deck communicates a like and each is its own special personality. I believe that to be very true. The amount of sass a deck is able to give only compares to a 3 year old in Mickey Mouse pajamas. I’m grateful for my relationship with tarot.
On that note, I’m off to bond further with my new Signifier in an Imbolc reading (a day late) with a cup of chamomile tea.
Love and light to all!