Phase 2: Post Eclipse

Having thought about this for a while I became inspired with an understanding of what’s happening on a global level in the human consciousness. What does this Eclipse truly bring us?

The evolution of the human consciousness has been skyrocketing for quite some time now. In the last 30 years it has come leaps and bounds, really reaching it’s peak thus far as of the last 7 years.

So I find this fascinating, not to get too “Mayan prophecy” on you, but to correlate the facts of the shift we are experiencing. We know we are in the transition period of the galactic alignment, we move constellations so many thousands of years, we experience a life and death of the human evolution of consciousness. From the legends of a civilization so advanced ( aka consciousness evolved) to clear and pure evidence of the Stone Age when the humans were just learning how to make and use tools- there have been many times that humans have experienced evolution and have lost access to consciousness and then regain it as times goes on.

We are arriving at the peak of our evolution where the consciousness is about to evolve and we have a way of influencing the direction of its evolution. When I say “we” I say people who are “awake, conscious, intuitives, psychics, shadow workers, light workers” – the word doesn’t matter. The concept is what rings true- a person who is aware that she/he can improve himself, help others just by evolving his mind with some “out of the ordinary” things, working the other side of a brain. Side note: has anyone put a psychic through a CAT Scan or had monitors to check for brain activity in different regions of the brain and have them do a reading while their brain is being looked at? What part of the brain do you think would “light up”? I bet it would be the pineal gland, the 3rd eye, along with whatever area of the brain is their channel- one of the clairs. Anyway.

We had a “blip” of time to actively start waking ourselves up- doing our own shadow work, becoming aware of how we started affecting Mother Earth with our machines and technology, how we are on a global level having an impact on our environment. Then scaled down to individual person’s accountability for his/her actions- how ONE person can make a difference. Well, from there enough people got passionate about this and spread the message of “recycle, renewable energy”- that’s why these words now exist in our vocablary, because someone at some point in time got together with like minded people and made it their business to make humanity’s relationship with Mother Earth a better one, a healthier one. Few started it, but it woudln’t have worked if others didn’t become inspired by it and actually follow through. I am talking – garbage companies changing their equipment, their services to include recycling of paper, glass – that took organization and will to change! That took money, it took restructure but it was done and now look at that, your recylcing gets picked up at your house every other week! CHANGE IS POSSIBLE.

It starts with inspiration. It is OUR turn to inspire! It is OUR turn to work together, exploring each other’s insights and gifts and talents, become “buzzing” with energy so we can spark one off another and “light” more people with this infectious inspiration. What do we need to inspire each with? LIFE. The beauty of life. Our time on this planet is truly amazing. The creation of this world is undeniably breathtaking! This childlike wonder needs to find its place back into our hearts and take residence there if humanity has any hope of turning things around.

People who are “awake” have access to a gift of perspective- seeing how you can make an impact in a positive direction. From super cool “spiritual” gifts where people with tremendous potential are quietly lurking because they are too shy and quiet to speak up- that takes time, to find enough courage to participate in a discussion or ask a question sometimes. But if people are prompted with activities, questions, conversations, non-hostile environment, and welcoming, inspiring, and interesting members that growth happens a lot sooner. May be one person finds another person and a beautiful friendship forms of a student and a teacher- in a non-hierarchical type of way- but in a “global vision of inspiring the planet” type of a way. Encouraging people in their gifts, sincerely sharing their joy and wonder in life for the discoveries that they are making on their journey.

Think of it like- you have scaled by yourself to the top of the mountain- maybe with one or two inspirational books or if you are lucky, people close to you. Now it is your turn to turn around and give a hand to the person behind them, so that we can get over this mountain faster and get to the next chapter in our book of humanity.

Start conversations, ask questions- find people who you click with- get together with them for a skype session- not for money, but because you clicked! Feed off each other’s energy, connect and possibly make some discoveries together or create something beautiful like a new business to assist those who are still on their quest. Phase 2, post- eclipse- is the phase where we get together and SPARK, baby. We have got to fire up the global network of consciousness- and to get it online we have to work together.

I have been inspired with this vision after seeing a person whom I met for a reading just LIGHT UP with vision, fire and inspiration. I inspired her, she in turn inspired me, and here we are. This was a beautiful exchange of energy- and see the beautiful part here is that this relationship doesn’t need to have any labels put on it- it’s doing a service to the human kind when you are in the position to gift someone inspiration. So, don’t doubt yourself and just excatly how wonderful you are- GO INSPIRE SOMEONE.

 

Do readings for each other

Gift a bit of your gift to another person

Engage in conversation about something metaphysical- we have got to make it an okay subject to be talked about! We have come a long ways, but it needs to be normalized even further. There is plenty of work to be done here!

Attend “Go Live” sessions of people who ARE in the front lines of the inspiration – my shout out to Benebell Wen, Ethony Dawn, NWTS, Oracle Soup, Hermit’s Lamp, Jessi Huntingberg, Brigit from Biddy Tarot, Peggy Walman, Paris Debono, JP Sears, Teal Swan, Jay Shetty — I am SO leaving out a BUNCH of people- but these people are the next generation of inspriaton who’s lead we have got to follow up. I don’t know how many of them realize just what kind of an inspiration they really are for someone on “the path”- some aren’t very spiritual at all, some are #SpiritualAF – each is leaving their own uniquie footprint in this groundwork. They are attracting the RIGHT people to themselves! For example someone doesn’t resonate with Benebell and may not be interested in Tarot- could be inspired by JP- PERFECT. That is all that is necessary- YOUR INDIVIDUALITY!

I’m so thrilled to be on this journey along side with everyone- its going to be a great ride if we can reach out to those who have inspired us, or you feel “pulled to”-and start making magic happen, because from there on- it’s going to blaze with the speed of light!

Lets get this party started with some connections, skype chats, readings! Even 30 minutes of your time once.

Contribute to the Great Shift.

Love and light

 

Yulia

 

Jumping in

I didn’t set an intention, I didn’t plan this out, I don’t have a vision for what this looks like .. but I’m totally jumping in head first!

I’ve joined the instagram world, I’ve figured out how to create tarot spreads with the help of a computer app- and I’m just going to go ahead and share what I’ve got. There is no use keeping it all inside and in my head lol noone benefits from that.

So on Instagram come find me at:  yuliap719

 

Here are the two spreads I’ve gotten up so far, more to come

#totaleclipse #tarotspread #taroteclipse #monthahead #tarotreadings

 

Much love to you!

Eclipse 2Month ahead

Feeling the call

 

I’m not sure how many people are as aware of what’s happening on the larger scale of things as I am, but I feel compelled to share what I see and feel and understand.

Cosmos

We are at the early early stages of the Great shift in consciousness. This has been ramping up for about 200 years, going through it’s ups and down, peaking and dying back down. Our generation’s time has come to rise to the occasion and take this bobbing wave to the next level. We need to crest this wave, as my friend Shana says. We need to help it and see it through. The energy that has arrived to Earth needs physical assistance, it needs a physical embodiment, a physical manifestation. The only way to make that happen, is for us, physical beings with an awareness of this energy, to shape it and assist it in reaching its goal.

What in the world am I talking about?

I hope folks with an intuitive gift already know and understand.. I’m certain most of us have felt it subtly or strongly- all depends on the individual and how in tune you are.        I, for one, feel it’s pressing energy, overwhelming, undoubting, ever present and eternal. It surrounds us, it’s shifting us into best possible locations and teams, uniting us and helping us help it achieve its goal. Energy of change. Energy of the new evolutionary process of the human society. Our souls are waking up, our alarm clock is sending distant signals letting us know we can turn things around and make the change, but we have got to wake up and work as a team. Intuitive people feel this. Intuition is on the rise- the energy is so strong that it’s waking up a lot of people, but they aren’t quite sure what to do with it.

If you are one of these people: your task is your shadow work! Why? Because as long as you harbor shadows in your soul, the light can’t reach you fully, thus you can’t be as effective. You need to use this energy to make transformations in your own life, and as that change is made you are able to assist the global collective. Shadow work means working through your own limitations, doing an assessment of what in your life serves you and what doesn’t, what are you not looking at, what needs attention, what have you been carrying around for no good reason, what can you shed, and what can you accept. Its not easy task, but the capability exists in all of us. Otherwise we wouldn’t be here during this time on earth. You have selected this time to come here so you can see this change through. Its not a coincidence that you are waking up to your own abilities, that you are starting to ask larger questions like “who am I? what am I here for? whats my greatest joy? why are people so awful to each other? what can I do?” or even simpler questions like “do I believe in God? do I believe in a creator? OR how did we end up here?” may be even questions like aliens, ancient cultures, witches, pagans, druids, Egypt- anything that has a mystery is calling you.. take a deep look at why you are asking these questions. Find things that inspire your thirst for knowledge and let them lead, leave the stigma’s behind and introduce this change into your life.

This is a very exciting time and you have a lot to contribute! Don’t doubt that one bit, because deep down you are not just a human, you are an eternal soul that has a mission this lifetime around and your work is different than everyone around you, but it is equally important. None of us have the exact same gifts, many have similarities, but each has an individual specialty. You have an important role to play in the global perspective of this shift. I promise.

I have much more to say on this subject and look forward to providing my view on things as we progress through this incredible month of August.

PS: there is SO much happening in August! Wow! We are in for a real treat here.. get your seat belt on!

Love and light,

Yulia

Musings of a soul

Morning dew

I was reading my son a bedtime story, and one of the paragraphs talked about the morning dew. My mind wondered on this subject as I continued to read out loud, completely detached from the rest of the story.

Morning dew. It’s born every day because of the conditions in the environment. It is created out of the thin air. Scientifically, it is not so, and we understand why this event occurs. However, spiritually, this is a rather magik concept, isn’t it? It is a true combination of all 5 creative energies: water, air, earth, fire and Spirit. Without just one this would be impossible- if the temperature didn’t variate at night drastically, morning dew would not be there; if sun didn’t come up shining brightly and heating up the air, the morning dew wouldn’t be there. This is alchemy at it’s best. The combination of 4 environmental energies, aided by the Spirit, results in creation.  Witnessing a birth of water- the only unconscious living “being” on the planet- is a very special moment. Water runs, it moves, it plays – bathing in its environment. It LIVES by moving and celebrating its beauty. If water doesn’t move, it stagnates, it dies- think of stinky lakes and swamps. Death rules in that environment. Water takes shape in 3 stages: gas, vapor and solid. Water influenced by a frequency (cymatics) makes it take shapes that are not natural and make it move in certain ways. Water behaves in different ways. There are the slow moving rivers. This water is appreciative of its surroundings and it appears to ponder it’s habitat. There are other streams, that are wild, bursting with energy, wildly dashing through its surroundings. Water dies- streams dwindle down, slowly stopping its flow, and the water ceases to exist. Or it stagnates and breads bacteria. Water is born in new places through movement: it explores its new environment as it hugs every nook and cranny, every rock, every root in its path. Water makes things come alive- it is capable of moving anything in its path, it is unstoppable.

I digress. The morning dew is literally water appearing out of nowhere. This water is life itself being born. This is an absolutely magikal time in our environment. What a cycle in creation to witness! What a beautiful moment that is no longer appreciated by most humans on Earth, because we forgot what it means to LOVE our planet. There is a very good documentary about Dr. Emoto and his work “The water experiment”. His findings prove that the energy a person emits with intention, such as wishing someone well, or wishing someone ill,  has an influence on the water’s molecular structure. For example, a beautiful geometrical shape takes place if the intention is of loving and caring frequency. But distorted, dying and shapeless forms were the result of negative and hurtful frequency. To take this a step further: if we take the freshly born water (aka morning dew) and charge it with positive intention and loving and kind energy, this would create a very special “potion”. Pure born water mixed with pure intention, consumed with intention would no doubt have an impact on the person consuming this drink. However, it is worth mentioning that intention is the absolute key for this to work. The phrase “those who don’t believe won’t be affected” really resonates here. If you think this won’t work- you are not charging the water with the intention, thus of course it won’t work. However, if you take the time to feel into this understanding, you can open up the correct intention. If you understand why this event is important spiritually, you will understand what kind of an impact your soul can make when setting the proper intention.  That water would literally be LIFE that you are drinking. I’m sure I have to make the legal disclaimer here- I’m not a doctor, seek counsel of your doctor should you have a condition that requires medical attention. This is not meant to replace medical procedures. What else did I forget? Use common sense. But I know that those who understand the world on my level, will see what I’m talking about when I speak of live water and intention.

Examples of what you can intend the water to be:

-a health potion that corrects the PH level in your body.

-a cure for whatever disease, disorder, health issue.

-a charge of loving energy.

-a charge of positivity.

-a cup of self-love and self-care.

-a cup of a patience.

Visualization as you intentionally drink the dew could create another level of reality for you to experience. Setting the intention is a skill, there is a great difference between a wish, imagination, thought and true intention. When we want to move our arm- we don’t wish for it to happen, we don’t will it to happen, we don’t need to imagine it- we just do it. That’s intention. There is a world of understandings there about this (Transurfing reality is one; “The Secret” is another). This is just a side note to consider.

 

In Russian Pagan culture there is a special holiday, called Ivan Kupala. Kupala, which sounds like someone’s last name, but actually is formed from the word “kupat'”, which means  “to bathe”. Translated loosely, it would be something along the lines of Ivan the Bathing. This special day happens from the night of July 6th to the 7th. Traditionally, on this night women and men would go out bathing in the fields of tall grass covered in the evening and morning dew. They would go out naked to walk, dance, and run allowing the morning dew to absorb into the skin. Near the Summer Solstice, June 22nd, this was believed to have been the night where the most powerfully charged dew is created, thus energies of creation are in bloom. The plants are believed to be at their prime energetic peak.

Now, to take this a step further: morning dew forms on different plants. Freshly formed, it comes in contact with a plant, that carries its own qualities. For thousands of years people have understood that plants posses different qualities, such as calming, relaxing, energetic. Their properties have a direct influence on medical conditions such as low blood pressure, migranes, stomach aches etc.  When the plant is in a full energetic peak, covered in freshly created morning dew it creates a one of a kind essence: a mixture of the plant and the water, and the surrounding energy. The synergy of water and the special quality of the plant, becomes a very special potion. Even if the plant is not at its full prime peak, it still has an influence on the dew that formed on it.

I grew up with my grandmother telling me to always walk barefoot in the morning dew. She taught me that this brought health, longevity and satisfaction to a person’s life. I feel like I understood that at the time, as a child, on an extremely deep and connected level. And then.. the blind unconscious of modern society, shielded me from practicing that understanding, eventually making it easy for me to forget all about it. Modern society is structured to keep us always busy with something, always distracted from our connection with earth, with creation, with life and with ourselves. How often are you able to take the time to just be? Be in this moment, enjoying it just as it is right here and right now? Between beeping phones, flashing lights, constant noises- we are distracted. We forget to observe our environment, and we sub-come to it, often getting swallowed by its current. We dive into daily grind, daily struggles, and we forget to come back up for air.

Taking moments to pause and enjoy life, to connect with a beautiful moment of a sunrise, or a sunset, to connect with the howling wind, or with the crashing waves of the ocean, or with the roar of a waterfall, or with the slow and steady movement of a wide river. To be one with the chirping of the birds, or with the “ribbit-ribbit” of a spring frog. These moments give you the perspective that you need to gain in life to make it more meaningful. Taking the time to connect, to heal energetically will have tremendous effects on the health of an individual.

I look forward to muse further on this understanding, and explore it deeper. The level of understanding of it in my head is huge, but I struggle to find the words to re-tell it and paint the picture that I see in my head.

Love and light,

Yulia

Tarot: Surprise afternoon with the High Priestess.

I’m not even sure if the word “surprise” describes this correctly. Technically, if the cards tell me some things about my day before my day even begins, what happens shouldn’t be a surprise, right?

I do daily draws- instead of just one card that can be so many things: advice, warning, what’s around me today, what to watch out for, what to contemplate on etc. I choose to do 3 cards for the day: what’s happening around me in the morning, mid-day, and evening. Then I get 1 advice card for the whole day. This gives me the best preview of what my wake up- to noon time will be about, what my noon to 5 will be like, and 5pm to bed time. The advice cards covers the whole day and is applicable to any and all of it.. I feel like if I get an advice card for each part of the day, that’s almost like cheating. C’mon, figure it out yourself, make an effort at least!

So today’s cards were Tower Reversed, High Priestess and Star. Daily advice was 7 of pentacles. I have a special relationship with that card. It’s my “you are a procrastinator” card.. so when it showed up for today’s advice, it puzzled me. You want me to procrastinate to day?? That doesn’t seem right with these 3 important major arcanas sitting right above you… 7 of pentacles, you be crazy. But this card had a different feel to it today energetically. By habit I jumped to “procrastinate” definition, because for me, in any of my readings for myself or others this card hasn’t meant anything else. Today, I felt the card was advising me to take the day slow and steady, and all would make sense. This felt like a much more appropriate interpretation, and it seemed to fit.

Tower Reversed:

This card is suppose to cover “wake up until noon” time frame, but in my experience, the card can represent one particular and important moment in that time frame, rather than the overall feel of that time.  The Tower Rx was definitely about one particular moment. My dear sweet husband, had worked all day Sunday (6am starting), came home for dinner, took an hour break, and went back to work. He came home and crashed into the bed at 4am. (Life of a business owner- we own an asphalt maintenance company). His plan was to get 4-5 hrs of sleep and get back to the new day. However, at 7am I find him getting into the shower: an employee didn’t show up for work, so now he has to go super early. The look on his face of sadness, disappointment, exhaustion, anger- this was my Tower moment. However, once he got in the shower, his phone beeped- that was the employee saying he is on his way and stopped at the store to get supplies we needed for the day. This was the Tower Reversed moment- disaster avoided. My husband, now showered, can go back to bed and sleep some more, which he promptly did. So this was a span of maybe 20 minutes where the Tower loomed up ahead..and then reversed, giving us a much needed break in the day. The rest of my morning was smooth and painless.

High Priestess:

This was the coolest experience! I’ve had moments where the cards of the day were extremely literal and it was a very personal and intimate moment of understanding a card and its message. I’ve never had the High Priestess Experience. Until today.

When I drew the card in the morning, I thought to myself: okay, secret keeper, what do you have in store for me? I thought on all of her messages: hidden agendas, reflecting back to your inner guidance, “you already know”, what’s behind the veil, duality, listening to gut instinct and so on. I decided that she was telling me to spend some time reflecting on myself. My plan for the afternoon was to make a trip into town, about an 1.5hrs away, to get some supplies for the business and help my tired hubby out. I had ample time to think, be still in my mind, and just be present in the moment. To cut to the chase, I arrived to the first location: the man at the counter was all business, getting the order together, getting the paperwork, payment etc. Then something changed, and he started talking to me about his life, and how his journey took him to where he is now and where he hopes to go from here. He must be in his late 50’s, early 60’s, as he mentioned he was considering retiring soon. I listened intently, there was something special at having a complete stranger spill his life story to me. It wasn’t dramatic, he wasn’t looking for sympathy, or laughs, or a shoulder to cry on- his story was a happy one, he talked about joys in his life and how things have worked out for him, he talked about his aspirations and wants in life, he talked about his wife and her life (not nearly detailed as his). It felt like a genuine need to be heard, to be listened to, understood and for joy to be shared and for kind words to be said. This conversation, was mostly a monologue, really. I didn’t say much, except for an occasional “yes, aha”. I maintained eye contact, full of curiosity, compassion, understanding and mostly, a genuine interest in this human being in front of me. He talked for about 20 minutes. At the end, he was really surprised at himself for having shared so much, and he said that somehow he felt so much better and thanked me for talking to him. We ended the conversation by introducing ourselves and shaking hands. (S)

On my way to the next stop I kept thinking at what transpired. All of a sudden, I had a realization “this was the High Priestess moment”. I listened intently, like she does. I didn’t judge or provide commentary. I allowed the person the room and the space to reflect on to their own life. That literally blew my mind.

I arrived at my next location: I decided to stop in at the jewelry store to get my wedding ring inspected and cleaned, as it was due. I always go to the same place where we bought it, and while the staff there changed, there is an older gentleman who has worked there for a long time. I have dealt with him at previous ring cleanings, and he was always polite, but distant, not too interested in engaging in any small talk or weather conversations. He greeted me as I walked in the door, I explained what I needed and he began to help me. He was quiet at first, and when we walked over to the cleaning station, he began talking. At this point, I realized I could have another experience of the High Priestess energy and decided to consciously ride this wave, knowing what I needed to facilitate to allow it to keep happening. He talked for over an hour. He told me about his wife, his dad, his career, his life choices, time in the war, concerns he is faced with at this time. We stood off to the side of the cleaning station, as other employees were walking by, customers coming into the door, but if felt like we didn’t exist, we weren’t there. No one noticed us, no one interrupted us. I allowed for the space for him to reflect on his life, and realize how full of joy it really was. There were a few times he got teary eyed looking back on some memories. It was a beautiful experience. I felt like I was there to facilitate it, as those people needed to reflect on their lives, listen to their inner voices, but my role was very minimal. I barely said a few words during that hour. He wasn’t overbearing, looking to cry, complain or anything of the things you would think of when the person won’t quit talking. This had an entirely different feel. As the hour came to an end, he realized how long he was talking and the conversation drew to a close. We ended our talk with introducing ourselves and shaking hands. (D)

I went on to get lunch at a near by grocery store and pick up a few things. I had to ask an employee where to find the organic bubble bath for kids, as I don’t shop there too often. I could tell the same thing started happening, but unfortunately, I was completely out of time, as I had to pick up my 3 year old from daycare, and still had 1.5 hrs to drive before I got there. I was saddened to have had to end that experience. (Sorry H!)

However, my drive home was full of reflection on the High Priestess and her powers. She is silent, her words aren’t needed. Her attentive eye gaze, that sees the person’s soul, is what does the trick and allows the person to begin exploring what is really in his soul. She listens, she doesn’t judge, agree or disagree- that’s not her job. She creates presence for the person to reflect on themselves, check in with their inner compass, and take the time to examine their map of life.

This is was a deeply personal and intimate afternoon with the High Priestess.

My evening card? Well.. it’s the Star.

As I was walking into the office tonight, my sweet husband was snoring on the couch (as he rightfully should), I had just closed the bedroom door to my son’s room- he was off to dreamland after a busy evening of a bubble bath and lots of books. I shut down the Quickbooks, checked the email, made the list of to-do for tomorrow, and was about to shut off the computer…and then decided, stuff like this doesn’t happen often. I need to write about this…now, where is my blog?

The Star: the card of an artist and writer. She is the muse, the inspiration, the quiet creator of the inspirational fairy dust. Thank you for being my evening card and motivating me to write and share.

7 of pentacles was indeed the most appropriate card of advice for the day. Do things with dedication and purpose and the hard work will pay off. I allowed the time for the experience to take place instead of rushing off to the next thing. I procrastinated, indeed, but in the most rewarding way.

Love and light!

Yulia

Back to connection

Even at the best of times, when I think I’m most connected to my higher self and my consciousness, I get lost. I lose my way all the time, multiple times a day.. sometimes I become aware of it, sometimes I don’t and continue operating under the understanding that I’m connected. I still think I understand what’s going on, that I’m in control and I’m aware, that I’m doing everything in the highest good. Until I have that one wake up call, that I really haven’t been paying attention, thta I am walking around, more like stumbling, with my eyes closed and not interacting with daily life. That I’ve become closed off and unperceptive, that I’ve shut down. However, my mind is so great at masking this from me that I slip in unconsciousness completely unaware that I’m not longer lucid. It’s like losing track of yourself in the lucid dream, somehow you unnoticeably become part of the dream and no longer in charge of it. Life is like a dream, it’s pliable and willing if you are lucid, and it’s dense and muddy when you are not.

Last night’s tarot reading and today’s meditation brought me back to lucidity. My reading was extremely powerful and jolting to opening my eyes again, and taking a deep breath. My Judgement call came. This is it. This is my last opportunity, next time I slip away for a long time, I won’t come out. The calling energy is here, you either get on board or you don’t. This is the last opportunity. I must do all possible to stay lucid, to stay aware. So focus becomes on how to stay lucid, how to stay conscious and aware of my life. Staying grounded and staying connected, while still having to participate in daily activities of unconscious mind- as they still must be managed. Self care, in the most simplest form- early up, exercise, conscious presence in all decision, slow down, take time to be grounded, to meditate. When tarot cards start popping up and I’m looking at them with “big blank eyes” – I have no clue what you are saying to me- I’m not 5 of cups, or I’m not 4 of cups, or 7 of wands, or even 3 of swords- this is the biggest clue that yes, you are. You have slipped off, you are unconscious and the cards are mirroring it back to you. Denial will get you in trouble, you will further slip away. There is a part of you that must recognize the situation for what it truly is- looking at things you don’t want to look at, becoming interactive with all aspects of your life. Are you going from day to day “waiting for Friday” so you can do nothing productive, so you can “relax”, so you can “please” yourself with Netflix and ice cream. or will you do something worthwhile- like take the time to meditate, take the time to write and reflect. Keep up on the consciousness, checking back with yourself about being awake, getting feedback from yourself- sending yourself signals and responding to them- are both parts of your brain participating, are you aware, are you conscious. When you don’t want to do that- that’s one part taking over the other- your mind is allowing you to fall asleep and has deployed it’s tricks. “Ah, I’ll meditate tomorrow. Or, ergh, I don’t want to balance my bank account today, I’ll worry about it Monday”. This right there- should be your wake up call. This should click in your mind and turn on the defense questions: Wait. Why am I procrastinating again? Am I fully conscious?

Self pity is a slippery slope of the unconscious. Its a quick slide, it’s a quick ride to the bottom of fully unconscious. The victim mentality. “But I’ve worked so hard, I’ve cleaned the whole house today, I’ve taken care of everyone else today, I need downtime. I need to just “veg” on the couch and chill. There is nothing wrong with watching one movie before bed.” I’m at a point where this exactly gets me in trouble. One night turns into the next, and next and next… and after that I’m out like a light. No longer aware, slipped into “victim mentality” of I’m so tired, I’m so exhausted, life is hard, I don’t want to do this anymore, I wasn’t meant to just clean the house, feed my family and pay bills. I’m a spiritual being, I need time for me to read my cards… This is my slippery slope! It’s so eerily similar to the reality that I’m a spiritual being, that I’m more than a housewife and business owner. But the approach to this must be different! Looking at this resentfully, looking at this annoyed and ungrateful (looking at the murky sun from the bottom of the lake, through the water)- doesn’t paint a good picture. But reversing the role, by giving myself time to be conscious, to be up at 4am- not because it’s the right things to do, but because it feels good to be up with Earth and Sun, on their cycles, is empowering. It’s uplifting. I’m taking the time to remember my place in Universe, to take life by the horns and take charge of my consciousness.

My theme card was Chariot. Taking charge, taking control, being willful, being powerful and aware, lucid, the driver- the direction giver, the navigator of consciousness. Taking charge of the situation, rather being unconsciously drag by the situation whichever way it takes you.

My issue is unplugging from life and being irresponsible with my finances. Instead of allowing money to run my life, I need to make the money work for me. Making wise choices, making wise purchases- not cheap, not save a penny here or there- but in general being more conscious of what bills I actually have, how much interest is going somewhere, what useless crap do I tend to buy (aka coffee and take out). Its not about spending $10 for a dance class, it’s about the bigger picture- am I in control of my finances. Does the money serve me? or do I serve it? Its easier to roll over and let it take over. But its worth it to get on it, and ride it.

I struggle remembering how to best connect with my consciousness. I begin to substitute my spirituality with watching Gaia TV, or listening to other’s spiritual wisdom. It will not replace me experiencing it. I can’t experience their wisdom, because it’s not mine. It may make a lot of sense. But the best way is to do it. TO take the time to meditate. To take the time to write and reflect. Not for Ego’s sake (oh I’m so wise.. I have so much knowledge), but for myself, I’m not out to teach anyone anything, but to live my life the best way I know how. My ego needs to settle down. I’m aware of when it starts to get cocky, so that’s a plus. I get too worried about what others will think of my musings, rather than just doing this for myself. I try to make things too official- Let go of the concept that I have to fit it in any sort of a box, it is what it is. Any beginning is a beginning, it doesn’t need to be a perfect one. It doesn’t need to be beautiful and decorated. This is my story and I choose to write it however it serves me best.

My cards showed me the importance of not being lost in Ego land, the land of instant gratification, the wishful thinking, how important to just recognize that all prior mistakes are just water under the bridge, and I must move on. 7 of cups and 5 of cups reversed – their message is to stop dreaming, stop pouting, but pick up the full cups and move on. Cross that bridge, make that commitment and keep walking. Quit coming back to mourn your 5 cups. Live in the present moment. Let it be your departure point into the future, rather than living the past moment, allowing it to define your future.

What do I have to do to stay conscious?

Be on the look out for victim mentality. It’s not enough to just recognize that I’m thinking that way again. It’s necessary to remember that I can’t live in “tomorrow I’ll do better”. The saying “Now is the only time” must be felt and embodied. That means right now, right here I make the choice to be conscious. I’m aware of my actions, I’m aware of the bigger picture of why I’m doing the things I’m doing. I’m aware that I’m not a victim, that I’m doing this for myself, to better myself. By reminding myself that now is my time, I’m pushing myself towards my life path, towards the light. Take the time to remember that each day is the “Now” what I do “now” determines my future path. It is not about “oh I messed up, this will screw me up, I’m so bad..blah blah blah”. It’s about recognizing when you are no longer conscious, and gently lovingly push yourself back to the light, but reminding yourself “Now is that moment”.

When I hear the “mental fog” and things that I think I remember what they mean, but don’t quite “feel” them- let that be an alert. a wake up call. Let that be the perfect time to remember that “now is that moment” to go meditate, to connect with my own consciousness. Love yourself enough to wake yourself up.

Hermit is not about being left alone, or being able to relax, or being able to get away from it all. It’s about taking the time to plug in to your own consciousness, to access where on your path you are. Are you lucid? Are you straying? Hermit is the loving and gentle reminder that you need a re connection with meditation of being “present”. Not a spirit guide, or a lucid dream, or astral projection.. but “NOW” moment. Being aware of your body, being aware of your soul in your mind, being aware of the spiritual being that resides in your body and in your mind. Allow that spiritual being show you the way, light your path and direct you to the higher good. Follow it’s call, this is your judgement. Go with that energy.

Love and light!

Yulia

Tarot: When you shift energies

 

My tarot cards have recently taken over a great chunk of my free time, and I’m loving every minute of it.

I got enough courage again to read for strangers, and it’s been truly rewarding. I’m finding myself as I help others find themselves. What can be more soul nourishing? That’s about it for me. To be the voice of kindness, to be voice of guidance, to be the voice of encouragement, to be the voice of caution, to be the voice of enthusiasm for someone. It’s a gift to be able to give from your heart and from your soul. A message that comes from a stranger, in the words that you needed to hear, in the words that you needed most right now. Those words, because they come from a complete stranger, who somehow is able to see you so transparently and the energy happening around you, are a message of the universe. Your doubts are cleared, you find the courage to believe in yourself, you find a way to the path that you lost a while ago. I am at my greatest joy typing those messages to people, knowing that what I see will make a difference in their lives.

So for months now, I have been stalked by one particular court card, that has announced itself to me as “me” at my highest potential. The card would show up at readings nagging me about things I have been putting off, about my attitude or behavior, or any sort of action or inaction I have done, that didn’t put me at my highest potential. As a disclaimer, I have to say that I completely deserved every nagging reminder and every dirty look the card gave me, as it gathered it’s gang of supporting cards around itself. She has been so good to me, in the most annoying way.

I have changed things in the last few weeks, I live differently, I behave differently, I practice patience a lot more, I make time for things that matter and let go of things that don’t. It’s been a magical difference in the way I feel and the way I see life. It’s made my connection with Tarot much stronger and more important. Two nights ago (or about that) I had a dream where I literally FELT and understood that the nagging court card has left me as “me”. It was no longer my energy, I was no longer its essence. Instead, I was given a new card, a new Signifier. It was quite the upgrade in energy. That energy feels so beautiful, soft, silky and luxurious. Then it dawned on me, how differently I felt and it only made sense that my “old skin” was shed off, and I embraced a new one.

A change of signifier in readings was not something I really thought I’d get to experience, because I never thought that it existed. I didn’t even really use a signifier much in my readings, I just became aware that the particular Court Card was me through its behavior and I’ve used it as my signifier because of that. But then to experience that dramatic shift in energy and realize that the old signifier no longer feels right, and that the dream in fact was true, I did get an “upgrade”. That made my heart melt with joy.

A relationship with your cards is truly something special and indescribable. The cards laugh, joke, annoy and get annoyed, stress, deploy sarcasm, show compassion and call you out on your bull shit. They penetrate your dreams, they become another language you speak and understand, they become a different way of understanding the world around you. They allow you to see and feel energies, they allow you to peer deeper than you ever have before. They carry and share an immense amount of wisdom and welcome you to be its guest, provided you have set good intentions. Lying to the cards is absolutely pointless. They are always right. I, as a reader, can be wrong, but never them.  The amount of attitude and personality in each deck is so unique. It’s been long believed that no deck communicates a like and each is its own special personality. I believe that to be very true. The amount of sass a deck is able to give only compares to a 3 year old in Mickey Mouse pajamas. I’m grateful for my relationship with tarot.

On that note, I’m off to bond further with my new Signifier in an Imbolc reading (a day late) with a cup of chamomile tea.

Love and light to all!